संसारदुःखपाषाणनीरन्ध्रहृदयोऽप्यहम् । निजलोकभयादेव गलद्बाष्पं न रोदिमि ॥ २२ ॥
saṁsāraduḥkhapāṣāṇanīrandhrahṛdayō’pyaham | nijalōkabhayādēva galadbāṣpaṁ na rōdimi || 22 ||
Translation
My heart has become solid stone with the sorrow of the world, without a crack; and yet, only from fear of my own people, I do not weep with flowing tears.
Word by word
- saṁsāra
- of the world
- duḥkha
- with the sorrow
- pāṣāṇa
- stone
- nīrandhra
- without a crack
- hṛdayō
- (hṛdayaḥ) my heart
- api
- and yet
- aham
- I
- nija
- of my own
- lōka
- people
- bhayāt
- from fear
- ēva
- only
- galat
- flowing
- bāṣpaṁ
- with tears
- na
- not
- rōdimi
- I weep
Meaning
Another commentary explains his reason: if he wept, his family would weep too. So he hides his grief, out of love. The heart "without a crack" is closed: grief cannot get out and comfort cannot get in.